I racked my meagre brain to think of another celebrity I might just even slightly, if you squint, resemble. Yet the only images that flashed in my mind were the multiple chins, fleshy, and generally blob-esque stature of Jabba.
Hi, i’m Cindy, and i’m Fat. (Sometimes Caps is needed to convey the importance.)
If I was at 12 Step program this is where you would coo and welcome me warmly with open arms.
In reality, I am lying in my bed, morbidly obese, angry at myself for being in this position, and having just consumed KFC.
I dont even like KFC! Why did I eat it?
Ive always been fat. And the varities of- chubby, Rubenesque, volumptuous…you get my drift. Whichever which way you call it, there has always just been far too much of me. More than is reccommended health wise, more than is generally accepted in society, and this part is integral- more than what I am comfortable with.
It’s not all negative. I know I can do this. Why, I’ve done it before! Only 2 years ago I lost 17kgs, using Weight Watchers and mild exercise. I blogged, too. If you are interested, here is the address- http://cinderellabigbuttgoestobootcamp.blogspot.com
Blogging, I believe, was a huge part of how I managed to stay motivated last time. I dont lack the knowledge on losing weight (In fact I dont think most people who are overweight do) but I can be very weak willed and lazy!
This photo on the old Facebook certainly was a reminder that HELLO, you’re a fattie!
For the last two months I have been seeing a Personal Trainer. His name is Dave- you will hear more about him i’m sure. He is lovely and encouraging and has taken me from someone who could only walk 700m without stopping to have an almost cardiac episode, to someone who can jog for 1km (albeit slowly, and with many protests along the way that I cant do this and that he is an arsehole.)
However no amount of exercise in the world can combat the way I have been eating lately. I have been completely out of control!
This is common for me- im either exercising, or eating really well. For some crazy reason I really struggle to combine the two, yet I know the only way to see results is to do this.
So, here I am.
What changes am I going to make? Small ones at the beginning.
- Water. I am never thirsty. Or more accurately, I think I have been dehydrated for so long I no longer recognise my body screaming for hydration. I know the second I drink more, I drop weight, its as simple as that.
- Breakfast. Every idiot knows its the most important meal of the day, blah blah. I will actually eat Breakfast every day this week, and I know I will feel better for it.
- Exercise. Do some form of it every day.
- Journal. Track what I eat, when I ate it, how I felt, how many time I did poos and wees. Maybe not so much the last part, lol. But definitely track.
And so, this is me.
I would love to be a part of your journey, and have you as part of mine. What do you say?