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Sweet Delights!

Look what I just ate!

Oh no! I hear you cry, banging your angry fists on your keyboard. She was so motivated yesterday, what has she done?!

Fear not, my friends.

I made this after my PT session with Dave, which was tricky but fun tonight. He made up his own torturous little circuit, which included 200m stints on the rower, starjumps, push ups, sit ups and all other glorious creations.

For the first time in a long time, I feel in control of my eating. Every single thing that passed my lips today was there because it was planned, sorted out the night before.

I love the feeling of knowing that I used my head to control my eating today. Not my emotions, not my lack of organisation and therefore just grabbing something, but my head.

The above was what I made myself for dessert. I had dinner earlier than usual and was exceptionally hungry. (I think I need to experiment with more protein for lunch.)

My sweet treat is made from the below-

To keep me going, I have bought some WW desserts. Im not following WW as such, but remember from when I was that the puddings and also the Peters Ice Cream slices are very yummy and not going to blow out my food intake. It has done alot for my mental state too because I dont feel like im missing out whatsoever.

It wasnt all smooth sailing today though- I am ashamed to say I did not have breakfast. 😦

I went in with good intentions! I toted to work with me my little packet of oats and a trusty banana, ready to eat when I read the morning paper at work.

However, when I was making my oats, with my cut up banana, feeling pretty smug (im nothing if not honest) when I pour the milk from the work fridge on top……and it doesnt come out in liquid form, it comes out in clotted chunks of sour stench.

YUCK!

I could have thrown it out and gotten something from a cafe nearby. It just seemed so…risky? I was frightened I might go in looking for sourdough toast and come out with a croissant. Its happened before.

No wallowing, I’m just going to do better tomorrow!

Onwards and upwards for another day, hope everyone else has had a good one!

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When thinking about what celebrity I resembled, the only one I could think of was Jabba the Hutt.

Depressing, right?

I racked my meagre brain to think of another celebrity I might just even slightly, if you squint, resemble. Yet the only images that flashed in my mind were the multiple chins, fleshy, and generally blob-esque stature of Jabba.

Hi, i’m Cindy, and i’m Fat. (Sometimes Caps is needed to convey the importance.)

If I was at 12 Step program this is where you would coo and welcome me warmly with open arms.

In reality, I am lying in my bed, morbidly obese, angry at myself for being in this position, and having just consumed KFC. 

I  dont even like KFC! Why did I eat it?

Ive always been fat. And the varities of- chubby, Rubenesque, volumptuous…you get my drift. Whichever which way you call it, there has always just been far too much of me. More than is reccommended health wise, more than is generally accepted in society, and this part is integral- more than what I am comfortable with.

It’s not all negative. I know I can do this. Why, I’ve done it before! Only 2 years ago I lost 17kgs, using Weight Watchers and mild exercise. I blogged, too. If you are interested, here is the address- http://cinderellabigbuttgoestobootcamp.blogspot.com

Blogging, I believe, was a huge part of how I managed to stay motivated last time. I dont lack the knowledge on losing weight (In fact I dont think most people who are overweight do) but I can be very weak willed and lazy!

This photo on the old Facebook certainly was a reminder that HELLO, you’re a fattie!

For the last two months I have been seeing a Personal Trainer. His name is Dave- you will hear more about him i’m sure. He is lovely and encouraging and has taken me from someone who could only walk 700m without stopping to have an almost cardiac episode, to someone who can jog for 1km (albeit slowly, and with many protests along the way that I cant do this and that he is an arsehole.)

However no amount of exercise in the world can combat the way I have been eating lately. I have been completely out of control!

This is common for me- im either exercising, or eating really well. For some crazy reason I really struggle to combine the two, yet I know the only way to see results is to do this.

So, here I am.

What changes am I going to make? Small ones at the beginning.

  • Water. I am never thirsty. Or more accurately, I think I have been dehydrated for so long I no longer recognise my body screaming for hydration. I know the second I drink more, I drop weight, its as simple as that.
  • Breakfast. Every idiot knows its the most important meal of the day, blah blah. I will actually eat Breakfast every day this week, and I know I will feel better for it.
  • Exercise. Do some form of it every day.
  • Journal. Track what I eat, when I ate it, how I felt, how many time I did poos and wees. Maybe not so much the last part, lol. But definitely track.

 

And so, this is me.

I would love to be a part of your journey, and have you as part of mine. What do you say?

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